|"HOLD YOUR BREATH, MAMA!!"|
Even though I tried to hide many of my symptoms,
this little guy had a keen sense and was always
trying to help me get better.
It took losing my ability to push through the tough days to open my eyes. It was when I was finally void of my emotional steadiness, my mental strength and physical strength that I found my true strength; God’s unending love. I’ve realized that I am nothing apart from Him and that the richness in my life comes from fully sacrificing my own will to His. To die to self and live in His grace is the only way to walk in His glory.
"We pray that you’ll have the strength to stick it out over the long haul—not the grim strength of gritting your teeth but the glory-strength God gives. It is strength that endures the unendurable and spills over into joy, thanking the Father who makes us strong enough to take part in everything bright and beautiful that he has for us."
My health will one day be restored! In the meantime, I'm learning just how wonderfully strong I am, when I am at my weakest, and God is at His fullest. I am so happy to report that last school year was our most successful one ever. Although that shouldn't have surprised me, it still did. Looking back at the massive mountain we had to climb, I see just how impossible it would have been on my own. Letting go and letting God, isn't just a cliché; It's the truth in evidence of serving a living God.
I was haunted daily with this idea that my kids’ salvation and success in life depended on me and my abilities to lead them. God has shown me, in complete and painful clarity, that His love runs deeper and His love never fails. The grace that He has afforded to each of us moms is because we are fallen creations. It is through God and God alone that His will in our lives is perfected. Apart from God we are nothing, but with God we are unstoppable!
If this has encouraged you, please share it with others and let God make a difference in someone else's life too.